the secret of life is decisiveness

and to describe something

i see the distance and move immediately into it

now i am really alone

from here i know these things: that a hamster is a lonely fist

that my poems exist to dispel irrational angers, that i want to hold your face

with my face

like…

There are random moments in my life where I am so happy that I am not you. Words can’t explain how grateful I truly am that I will make my own way in this world because I am smart and worked hard, and not because it was handed to me. That I won’t spend my life stuck in the same shitty town. That I won’t bully and belittle people who are ‘weaker’ than me. That I won’t think I am invincible because I have money behind me. That my life might actually be something other than a reputation for being an actual piece of shit.